I’m Still Co-Dependent

March 28, 2008

I keep my life very simple, which leaves little room for the craziness which used to be the norm.  I like to pretend that I’m all better.  But sometimes I worry that if my husband disappeared tomorrow I’d be back out there stalking train conductors and meeting men in self-help groups.

Yesterday something happened that made me realize, “Oh, you are soooo co-dependent and nothing has changed!”  And it happened in blogland.  I’m a fucking co-dependent blogger.   I worry about people who I’ve never seen before!

After writing about my mother purchasing a modular home (whatever that is) for my sister & her daughter, several people wrote sympathetic comments.  One in particular wrote that these homes are “worthless.”  Blah-blah-blah.  I was enjoying the pity party.

Then one of my newest favorite people writes back, “They’re not worthless . . . I own one.”

I worried about it all night.  I found myself thinking about it as I made dinner, as I walked through the house, as I sat on the toilet.  And it wasn’t even something I said!  I went so far as to check and see if she took me off her blog roll.

Walking through the house I screamed at my husband, “I am so fucking co-dependent, I’m obsessed with worry about something I didn’t even say to someone I don’t even really know!”

So I guess that answers my questions about what would happen if my husband disappeared.

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4 Responses to “I’m Still Co-Dependent”

  1. fivehusbands Says:
    March 28, 2008 at 12:11 pm

    I think I am co-dependent (as if being married to one alcoholic and one heroin addict isn’t enough proof) - once you didn’t blog for what seemed liked a very long time and I was worried about you.

    LOL - that’s so sweet of you :) Thanks! I’m not sure I know any other women who were seriously involved with a heroin addict. It’s like we’re in the same sorority.

  2. theramblinghousewife Says:
    March 28, 2008 at 2:47 pm

    That’s so funny. . . (LOL)

    You are clearly a very kind-hearted person though you always state otherwise.

    It’s why I like you! ;)

  3. Red Says:
    March 30, 2008 at 5:59 pm

    This post made me giggle .. cuz Im the same way. I worry. And I would never take you off my blogroll for something like that, silly!
    I know what modular homes are, I do. I’m not ignorant. But it’s my house. I own it. It’s mine. I have pride in my home, so no, it’s not worthless. If I lived in a cardboard box, it wouldn’t be worthless, because it’s mine.
    I’m loving your blog .. it’s so honest and humble, and at times, it makes me think of how I’ll be like when I’m older. I see myself within this blog, ya know.
    Anyhow, keep up the good work :)

  4. Becky Says:
    March 31, 2008 at 7:53 pm

    I’m codependent. And I’m proud of it. I also worry that The Internet will not Like Me if I don’t comment religiously. Talk about twisted.

    It gets overwhelming, doesn’t it? I almost think I have to limit my blog roll to a specific number, cause there’s no way I can keep up with any more!

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