Twisted Graduation Thoughts
May 3, 2008
My son graduates from college in 17 days.
I think I’ve been holding my breath since Christmas.
I remember my first thought when he was born: ”Oh my God, I can’t believe you gave me what I wanted most of all.”
When he played in Little League I would visualize a hit until my vision blurred; passing out and falling under the bleachers was a possibility. Even though, of course, I knew I was completely powerless to fix it for him.
Fifteen years later I continue to visualize and cross myself with abandon.
When dreams come true it’s a ridiculous shock, making your mouth hang open, your heart beat faster, your brain slow down.
I could not have wished for more.
May 3, 2008 at 9:19 pm
That’s a beautiful tribute to your son and to motherhood. Nothing prepares you for the intensity of feeling of having a child and watching them grow into adulthood. It is always a miracle…..
It’s pretty bizarre. There are lots of books on babies and none that I’ve seen on adult children. Weird.
May 4, 2008 at 8:45 am
Congratualations! It must be a surreal feeling . . .
With my boys being so young . ..I can only imagine . . .
May 4, 2008 at 9:12 am
Congratulations - especially since I realize the challenges he faced after reading “Random Pam”!
Just kidding, hiding behind humor, because everything makes me cry these days.
But I completely knew what you meant and agreed with it!